nk bgtau sat..

so i changed..

reading into Life of Pi

Currently, I am reading Life of Pi.

You may be forgiven if you express, “what? Again?” if you had remembered that I first mentioned about Life of Pi sometime last month, during the fasting month kot..

Well, I am still into it. Which means I have yet to finish and to be precise, I stopped at page 229 just now before maghrib. Another 200 pages to go in order to finish the story. Most probably this is one of the longest times I have taken to finish up a novel. No, don’t get me wrong. The story is as interesting as you can imagine, way better than the movie, but perhaps the details of the story, written from the 1^st person view, can be quite taxing, if I may say so. The writer @ narrator, in relating his experiences, dwells about his feelings, his thoughts. It’s taxing because I can’t help but to sail deep into my realm of thoughts and feelings as well. Every time I read the novel, after a few pages, the idea of the story connects to me, or should I say, I connect to the story in my own kingdom of life.

For now, I am still reading it, and reading into it..

The sea, inches beneath me yet to far to see.. page 208

God who is within and beyond and surround,

Who is so near, yet the darkness of the heart

Veils us from seeing

Him..

The ocean was a smooth skin, reflecting the light

With a million mirrors.. page 212

God shows Himself Majestically in millions of

Instances yet unnoticeable by the mortal eyes

What a shame!

 

Layan..

I wrote this for you

"Oh shut up. Every time it rains, it stops raining. Every time you hurt, you heal. After darkness, there is always light and you get reminded of this every morning but still you choose to believe that the night will last forever. Nothing lasts forever. Not the good or the bad. So you might as well smile while you’re here."

-I wrote this for you-

for my dearest students

WAFA, N4, samdolians, form 5 mwr, mlr, mlt and kng,
jangan bikin leceh, ha!

what is love?

everything is fun!

me: I call it my friendship list.

he: Great…. uhh, let me see it.

me: The things that are extra fun I’ve written in red!

he: Everything’s in red!

me: Yeah, I know!

to go away..

kalau kau tahu

Bunga-bunga yang berkembang itu rezeki,

Kalau kau tahu..

Bunga-bunga yang meluruh memenuhi rerumputan

Itu juga rezeki,

Kalau kau tahu..

Apatah lagi nafas yang kau sedut

Beribu-ribu kali sehari,

Pelbagai bentuk rupa warna-warni

Yang kau saksi,

Semuanya rezeki,

Kalau kau tahu..

Rasa di mulut,

Rasa di tangan,

Rasa di hati,

Rasa di seluruh

Anggota ini,

Tak pernah putus rezeki,

Kalau kau tahu..

Hujan panas,

Siang malam,

Silih berganti,

Mata memandang,

Telinga mendengar,

Mulut berbicara,

Limpahan rezeki,

Kalau kau tahu..

Yang cantik buruk,

Yang senang susah,

Yang sihat sakit,

Yang kaya miskin,

Rezeki terperi,

Kalau kau tahu..

Bila mati menjemput diri,

Itu baru takde dah rezeki,

Kalau kau tahu..

kutu

i just wanna be happy - ii

i just wanna be happy

i dont wanna go back to school

feeling that i had on monday morning

alam kabir alam saghir

beauty we love

zebra question

fatir 35:5

apa yang lu tunggu?

“And you? When will you begin that long journey into yourself?” 

― Rumi

 

the unbecoming of Mesir

it's a coup. as simple as that, against an islamic government chosen by the majority (unlike my beloved malaysia). 

pictures tell thousands of words.

the victims @ massacred:
 

raba'ah al adawiyah mosque on fire

  


the perpetrators @ devil's advocates:

devil sniper

demon in disguise

israel's origin

 

the arrogant

in Allah we trust..

the path you've chosen

either you stroll upon it,
or trudge across it,
it's the path you've chosen.

Qada n Qadar

jadi?
layan je, beb..

prayer vs busy life

last days puasa

Last days puasa

Minggu lepas kiranya last week of school la before the holiday.. isnin slasa rabu kelas macam biasa je.. tp masuk hari khamis budak form 1, 2, 4 seme kena pegi dengo ceramah kt surau.. gua ngajo form 4 n 5.. tp masuk je jumaat mmg tak ngajo langsung.. pagi tu perhimpunan punya la lama, mana lagi dengan penyampaian hadiah nya, ucapan gitu gini, sampai naik kematu ponggong, gua cakap lu.. akhirnya, dekat pukul 10 bru habis assembly. Peh.. tak tahan..

Petang jumaat tu, pegi beli barang2 dapur n pelbagai lagi sebelum nk raya ni.. mujur la untuk anak2 dh settle sebelum puasa hari tu lg.. jadi, tak la banyak kerenah nak berpusu2 dgn manusia kat shopping complex dan supermarket ni.. malam pas trawih seronok je, sebab esuk2nya tak sekolah dh.. cuti dua minggu, da.. tapi ada pulak kaum ode ikan tilapia. Maka pukul 11 mlm gua pun cargas la ke sangkar ikan, sampai pukul 12, menyauk dari 1 pagi sampai 2steng, pukul 3 cargas gerak balik, berhenti kt air tawar pekena mee goring dgn the tarik, hantar ikan kt 3 tempat, by sahur ngam2 chi ro sampai rumah.. pas sahur, mandi, solat subuh je, 6steng terlena akhirnya.. tapi jam 8 dh time to cargas dh..

Sabtu pagi, waktu yang dinantikan sebab nak pegi pekan sabtu kt bt10. Sebabnya ramai kaum dh balik kg dari serata Malaysia, jadi, pagi tu boleh le jumpa.. lagipun last Saturday of ramadhan memang meriah peniaga jual brg2 yg pelbagai.. harga jangan cite la, msti boleh adjust punya..

Pas habis kisah pekan sabtu tu, lbh kurang jam 11 gua pun gerak ke teluk intan, pastu ke parit  untuk ngutip duit kat ram sawit.. kiranya duit raya la.. : ) dari teluk intan nak ke parit lalu area kampung je all the way.. memang picturesque, gua cakap lu.. especially bila lalu kg gajah – lambor kanan – bota kanan – parit. Rumah2 kampung lamanya, peh, memang terbaek.. gua cukup suka lalu area macam gini. Mana lagi dengan sunyi nya, bersih, green, jalan pun tak sibuk.. last2 pkl 3 jugak la sampai rumah..

Petang tu kononnya belanja deme (read: anak2 n missus le) makan kt restoran yemen di manjung ni. Kaum cite nasinya dengan kambing mendy dan lain2 racun.. jadi, gua pun layan la.. conclusionnya: boleh laa, tapi klu di beri pilihan, ia tak la dok kt no 1.. malam je macam biasa sebelum terawih layan nia main bunga api n mercun pop2 dia. Anak gua, beb..

Sunday gua memang bawak bertenang.. iye la, mana tak penatnya dari jumaat malam sampai la malam tadi cargas tak henti2, kan.. layan..  baca kitab, layan video, malam terawih dengan anak2, pastu makan2 sikit, by 11 lena dh..

Semalam, cargas balik dh.. pagi hantar nia ke sekolah, basuh bmw missus, pukul 10 dah keluar manjung dengan missus. Pegi fotostat kitab, nak beli meja kecik dapat meja dgn set bangku pulak dh, pastu buat kredit baru kt skomk layan beli mesin basuh dan dapur + oven, (semua tu missus gua nak, k..bukan gua, k..)pegi beli no baru kat celcom, singgah beli tikar getah, bateri, kipas stand lagi, otw balik beli racun untuk kebun pulak.. celah2 tu amik nia. Petang jam 4 beli lauk standby raya nanti takde ikan.. last2 gedebak gedebuk sudahnya keluar masuk rumah pukul 7suku kat maghrib baru la boleh bertenang. Malam ingat nak tido la awal, dan memang tido awal pun, tapi pukul satu terjaga sebab nabil demam pulak.. adoyai.. jenuh jugak gua dengan missus gilir tengukkan dia sampai subuh.. nabil kalau demam memang brutal, beb.. sampai 38.6 temperature dia mlm tadi. Risau gua.. dulu sekali kena dok hospital seminggu, beb. Demam je tu.. yang jadi mangsanya gua la, sebab kena teman dia, kan.. anak gua, beb..

Pagi tadi bagi dia makan ubat lagi, pastu gua buat ubat kampong: beras pulut + asam jawa + pegaga + air ramas2 sapu atas kepala.. harap2 mujarab la, insyaAllah. Bukan apa lusa nak raya, jap lagi patutnya nak balik rumah mem bos gua kt pj..  ni pun gua nak cargas lagi.. dah dekat tengahari, kan..

Okay la, lain kali nyembang, kalau ada rezki, jumpa lagi. insyaAllah. Finally maaf zahir batin.

Selamat!

Dunya n Akhirat

Dunya itu berpada-pada

Akhirat kekal selama-lama

Sendiri mau ingat, haa..

aiming for Arasy

"The more you let go, the higher you rise."

— Yasmin Mogahed

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