Wednesday, February 29, 2012

a blink @ ages?


time crawls if you wait for it.

time flies if you are engrossed in it.

that’s how I view it. it was 624 hours @ almost 4 weeks ago since my last posting. worldly affair has got the better of me that I just can’t seem to find time to type away as I would love to. well, the worldly affair has nothing to do with lagho @ maksiat things, if you care to know..

I was, figuratively speaking, busier than the bee. up to the nose. drown in personal and school chores.

firstly, my son, abil, was hospitalized for 7 days. he was feverish for almost a month. after a few visits to private clinics, blood test at pathlab, outpatient treatment at the hospital, the doctors just couldn’t diagnose what’s wrong with him, thus the reason for him being admitted. and yours truly had to accompany him, which translates to dabbing him with wet cloth when the temperature rose too high at night, entertaining him with stories, sharing the same bed at night, having hotdogs for supper, etc, etc.. in a way, it was good because the time spent with him was a quality one. abil is such a manja boy, but he does have a short temper, especially with his siblings, but all in all, he is an adorable child. anak gua, kan.. finally, after 7 bottles of antibiotics dripped into the body, syringes of blood taken for lab test, vitamins tablets taken 4 times a day, the best the doctor could sum up was that there’s infection in the lung, and that too was not conclusive. anyway, I was thankful that he was discharged after a week. mind you, a healthy person can fall sick just by staying in the hospital caring for a patient with all the germs and bacteria hovering around. that’s my theory la..

at school, life as usual is hectic. with targets to be set, plans to carry out, teaching to do, homework and exercise to check and mark, sports practices to run, meetings to hold and to attend, the workload is, you guess it right, endless. since three weeks ago, I have been busy with an additional workload, the football teams, training almost every other afternoon, and this week I have yet to go to school since the under 15 football tournament is in progress, and my team is still in the running. earlier this morning, the team won the quarter final game, which was really unexpected, since the team ability is rather mediocre to me. the team lacks a playmaker, as such, basically, there’s not a clear pattern or system of play. and tomorrow they’ll meet the tournament’s favorite, in the semi. the favorite beat their opponent 9-0 in the quarter, so I guess you know what to expect la tomorrow. obviously everyone’s expecting the school team to get a thrashing, but if the players can play to the strategy I am pondering at the moment, maybe we can avoid a bashing then. hopefully. .

spiritually, the engine is running at a temperamental mode. like mentioned earlier, worldly stuffs can be distracting. but that is the reason for the stuffs to be there in the first place. (do you realize that? that this world is here to distract us from our actual reason for being here. what’s the real reason, by the way?) to see how well you can cope up with life and its affairs, whether you’ll give in to the temptation of things superficial, or you are able to cling on to the truth and do not drift away with the flow of insignificant and trivial matters. tough stuff, beb!

nevertheless, the path is there in front of us, everything we indulge in actually leads us to Him, and for that matter, if you do whatever you do and having Him with you, then life is a satisfaction, even though it may not seem that way on the surface.

many paths, one God, equals bliss.

so much for my thoughts, kan.. goodbye February, for the moments and memories..


buddhistintraining:  nirvanibliss:  “12 Symptoms of a Spiritual Awakening”1. An increased tendency to let things happen rather than make them happen.2. Frequent attacks of smiling.3. Feelings of being connected with others and nature.4. Frequent overwhelming episodes of appreciation.5. A tendency to think and act spontaneously rather than from fears based on past experience6. An unmistakable ability to enjoy each moment.7. A loss of ability to worry.8. A loss of interest in conflict.9. A loss of interest in interpreting the actions of others.10. A loss of interest in judging others.11. A loss of interest in judging self.12. Gaining the ability to love without expecting anything in return.-Anonymous  I like this :)

Friday, February 3, 2012

sembahyang atau salat?

kata “sembah” dan “hyang” memang ada dalam kosa kata jawa kuna. sembah berarti menghormati, tunduk atau memohon, sedangkan kata “hyang” artinya dewa atau dewata. dengan demikian, kata sembahyang merupakan paduan kata sembah dan hyang, yang artinya penyembahan dewa atau tuhan.

bagaimana pulak dengan salat? marilah kita rujuk pada salah satu bait Suluk Wujil:

unggulnya diri itu mengetahui hakikat salat, sembah dan pujian. salat yang sebenarnya bukan mengerjakan salat isya atau maghrib atau yang lain-lain. itu namanya sembahyang. apabila itu disebut salat, maka itu hanyalah hiasan dari salat daim. hanyalah tata karma.

manakah yang disebut salat yang sesungguhnya itu? janganlah menyembah bila tidak tahu siapa yang disembah. akibatnya akan direndahkan martabat hidupmu. apabila engkau tidak mengetahui siapa yang disembah di dunia ini, engkau seperti menyumpit burung. pelurunya disebar tetapi tak ada satu pun yang mengena burungnya. akibatnya, Cuma menyembah adam sarpin, penyembahan yang tiada berguna.


sunan kalijaga Sunan-Kalijaga by wanaziz

have a little faith

do you believe in God?

“yes, I do.”

do you ever speak to God?

“on a regular basis.”

what do you say?

“these days? these days I say, ’God, I know I’m going to see you soon, and we’ll have some nice conversations. but meanwhile, God, if you’re gonna take me, take me already. and if you’re gonna leave me here, maybe give me strength to do what should be done.’ “

mitch albom


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