Monday, October 31, 2016

dream catcher

Why did I like her?

Why did I like her?

I don’t know      
I wish I could say it was her eyes                                  
but they were just dark brown                                                                                 
or I liked her because                                             
she understood me
like no one else
but I don’t know  if she ever
understood me at all                                                               

I think while
I liked her
she didn’t like me
like I do her

so why do I like her?
only God knows

-guala!- oct ‘16

Saturday, October 29, 2016

birthdays and gifts

birthday. you are getting older. death is nearer. haha.. that’s my definition of birthday. anyway, that’s another story to tell, but not now.
well, this October I had a number of people who are close to me celebrating their birthdays.
firstly, on the 1st, nia, my youngest child, and ida, my youngest sibling, celebrated theirs. I didn’t buy anything for nia,yet, though I had contemplated to get her either a guitar, a ukulele, or even a doddler pen, maybe even a watch. but I’d yet to buy her any of these. since she was having her exam this month as well, I told her I would get her the present once she’s done with the examination. she had sat for two examinations, one at her primary school, and the other one at afternoon religious school. and she got second place at her afternoon school, though I wanted her to be first. haha.. langsung tak bersyukur, kan..    

* = * Alhamdulillah and I am proud of her la, actually. hopefully she can emulate this feat at her primary school too. insyaAllah. oh, I did take her for dinner at kfc actually. and her suida, my youngest sister, sent her a book and stickers all the way from NY.
as for ida, I sent her a book on poems by Hamzah Fansuri. and also a painting of a whirling dervish, specially made by guala! guess they have yet to arrive coz I haven’t got any news about them from her. they are supposed to be a surprise for her, unless she reads about them here la.. kn. hope she’ll like them. insyaAllah.

Then on the 19th, Al, my brother, and Tie, one of favorite students while I was in Kelantan, had their birthdays. as for Al, I did give him a shirt earlier, so on that day, just sent him a birthday wish je. he treated himself with a trip to langkawi. layan tu.. tie also just received a birthday wish from me, though actually I wanted to do more. maybe I’ll get her something when we meet in Kuantan at the end of the year kot..

lisa, my third child, who’s there in mrsm, celebrated her 14th birthday on the 21st. since she was away, I couldn’t get her anything. on that day when I called to wish her, I asked what she wanted. she answered that she had got herself the gift; her wonderful parents.. haha how my heart melted then to hear her say that. when I insisted her to name me something to get a birthday gift, she said a Quran with translation would be nice. Allah ya Rabbi, how solehah can you be..  hope she really turns out to be one, though she’s still a child. anyway today I got her the Quran and I gave her a watch too. and just now in the late afternoon, since abil and arief were home too, celebrated both nia and lisa’s birthdays. nothing much, just a cake I ordered from my student, accompanied with a birthday song and photo session je. layan..

so much for birthday, kan. and now I’m getting old, I don’t really look forward to my birthday anymore. haha  dh macam tak best je tua2 ni sambut birthday, kan..

nevertheless, I am thankful for the air that I breathe and for the love that surrounds me everyday. coz everyday is another birthday for me.. Alhamdulillah.

Sunday, October 23, 2016

layankan aje..

you are warm as the sun
you are cold as ice

but I’ve learned
to be alright with that


Wednesday, October 19, 2016

Tuesday, October 11, 2016

whirling dervish

artwork by guala! @ nkchai

Monday, October 10, 2016


assalamualaikum wbh

kembalilah pada Allah
sebelum kau kembali pada Allah


Friday, October 7, 2016


at first it was a thing
it was supposed to be something
but it turned out to nothing

is everything


Sunday, October 2, 2016


Bali Accommodation