- a spliff a day -

knocking on heaven's door

-knocking on heaven's door-

Why

Do you knock on heaven’s door

When you know

That’s not what you aim for

Knocking on heaven’s door

Is just a metaphor

Like

Wishing upon a star

Is just not what you really aim for

For I am more

Than just that

For I am beyond

All you dream for

Why

Do you knock on heaven’s door

When I am always

What you seek for

When I am always

Your love forever more

When I am always

Within you if you know

-nkc-

finding yourself

being sad

So sad.

I just feel that.

Deeply.

nkc

Alhamdulillah for everything -

if you don't miss me

If you don’t miss me

Like I do you

Hmm

It’s okay

Coz

Who would miss

A nobody

In a world

Of everybody

nkc

berhenti berharap

Duhai hati

Berhentilah berharap

Pada duniawi

Yang hanya meracuni

Dan tak berkesudahan ini

Membungkam

Suara ilahi

-         nkc -

mayat2 hidup : kita lee

Kita semua:

lu gua deme demo teman mike hang aku mu kawe ekau eden; 

Adalah mayat2 hidup belaka @ bangkai bernyawa

Nampak tak..

Idak, ekkk.. sabo je la

Takpe, tak marah pun

Hahhaa!

Layan..

School days are here again!

School days are here again!

One word to sum up: malas! Hahahaha

Yeah, u heard me right. I’m just not fully in my groove yet, to be honest. Last week was terrible. Every day at school I prayed hard that school would be over soon. How bad that was, huh, you tell me.. this week slowly but surely things are getting a lil better, apatah lagi I, as the sports secretary, have to prepare everything for the upcoming mini marathon, slotted for next Friday. I’ve sent out letters to the respective parties, and this week just making sure that all the materials needed are steady and ready.

Lacking the number of English Language teachers this year, I have to teach an extra class than usual. Complaining? Maybe, maybe, but not really. These couple of weeks is the time to adjust myself to the students ability and needs, and vice versa. Well, that’s how thing goes every new year, kan.

Can you believe it, I’m into my thirtieth year as a teacher come the end of 2018? Lama tuuu. Tua, beb! Hahaha guess I’ll quit soon. But not too soon coz I have to consider the financial aspect since all my children are studying still. Though in all honesty, God provides everything, so why worry? Emm, not everyone is able to comprehend or grasp that concept. They do know it, but to understand it? You need to put your trust in God solidly 100%. As for now I’ll continue teaching perhaps for a few more years. Perhaps. Time will tell.

Still talking about school. The other day if I had read it right, the education minister mentioned there would not be any more segregation among students. This would be done to make students feel equal and learn from each other. Ideally, that is a good thing. But the reality is, if you do not segregate them students, I’m afraid the weak students will become weaker and the good students will be bored. This is not something baseless. Unless you refer to boarding schools and schools in the big cities where most students are equal more or less, this concept is fine. But if you go to the city outskirt or schools in the remote area, many students lack the basics: reading writing and counting. I sincerely hope the officers at the ministry level or at least the state level, go down to those schools and stay there for a month or so in order to get a better and clearer picture of the situation on the ground. Rather than sitting in the ivory tower making statements and coming up with absurd policy, it is wiser to feel what the teachers and students there face every day. Talking is cheap, you know.

Another matter is not celebrating students’ achievement in the exam, be it upsr or pt3 or spm. The logic given is that the weak students would not feel bad or inferior if schools do not celebrate it. Okay, fine. But what about those students who have strived hard and burned the midnight oil in order to achieve flying colours result and making the school proud at the same time? Don’t they deserve any recognition or acknowledgement for the sacrifice they have made? It’s difficult to be fair, to fulfill everyone’s wishes. But I do hope the education ministry especially the minister can come up with a win-win solution.

So much for my thoughts, right. As if those fellow sitting up there would read this stuff. But I know the Big Guy up there is reading this : )

Layan….

via GIPHY

unspoken words

In silence I speak

My words mere hush

Yet so clear for the ear

To hear

Can you hear it

Softly as can be

Unspoken words

Inaudible voice

Yet everything

Appears as clear

As the clear sky

For you and only you

These words are spoken

From the core of my heart

I want your days to be happy

Not gloomy

I want your life to be full

Of laughter

Not tear

I want your heart to be content

Not crestfallen

To be okay with life

To be in harmony

To be the flow

So your heart will glow

With happiness

And sacred love

-nkchai-

Syukran huwa

Syukran huwa

Thanks for last year:
D happiness n sadness
D pain n gain
D laughters n cries
D sweetness n bitterness
D thoughts n understanding
D lessons n moments
D love

Alhamdulillah for every single thing.
I can never thank you enough.   ~  ♥