sedeh

Tadi lepas gua ngaja kelas 5 mawar, tiba-tiba gua rasa sedeh. Sedeh sangat. Memang kadang2 gua rasa sedeh. Biasa la tu, kan.. tapi hari ni sedeh nya lain macam je. Prasaan gua je kot? padahal masa kelas bukan main meriah je, bincang tentang poems. Gua mcm biasa msti buat mcm gua selalu buat, naturally NK Chai lee.. mriah gile2  menyulami pengajaran gua..

Tau kenapa gua sedeh? Sebab, gua sayang kt diorang. Saaaayaaaaang sangat! Betul, gua cakap lu.. tapi gua tak pernah la cakap kt diorang.. emm, pernah jugak kot, tapi in passing je la.. ala, cakap in general je.. yang gua sayang pada seme anak2 murid gua.. biasa la tu, kan.. tapi dgn budak2 ni, gua rasa macam ada connection. Chemistry in the air, bak kata orang putih. Ye la, gua ngaja puak2 ni dari diorang form three. Tu yg rasa kamcing dan faham jiwa.. jadi bila tinggal tak banyak bulan lg sebelum berakhirnya episode sekolah tahun ni, gua mesti brasa sebak di dada.. tapi sebab gua pandai camouflage, macam chameleon, diorang mana nampak prasaan sayu tu..

Gua pernah rasa sedeh macam ni dengan batch 2007 dulu, batch 2002 jugak.. batch 2007 ada la lagi yg masih keep in touch. Yang lain2 haram! Ye la, seme bz, beb. Busy dengan keracunan duniawi yg tiada henti. Semua ada life masing2, kan.. Telinga batin gua terngiang2 terdengar suara gelak depa seme.. masih terbayang wajah2 remaja depa tika tu.. tapi gua je la kot macam tu, ek.. nostalgia tak sudah..

Well, what do you expect from a romantic? Melancholic and nostalgic would seem to be the meal for this kind of persona. Did I ask to be born this way? Often thinking and longing for the days gone by. Is it wrong to be sentimental? Do you know that a romantic is a person who believes in romanticism, which is like a philosophy on life. Romantics love nature, old things like rustic villages and old buildings, love poetry and beauty, and have a tendency to get carried away by ideas. To get carried away by ideas, with ideas, is what I normally do. To dream away, if I may say so. See, I’m getting carried away from my title above.

Nevertheless, I very much treasure the moments I have had with 5 Mawar more than other classes not because they are brighter than the other classes, which they are not, so jangan perasan la, ek!, but because of the innate attachment that is impossible to be described by words. The moments that we have shared together, like every other moment, are priceless, and I’ll never exchange it for anything in this world, except maybe for a trillion bucks. : )

To the 5 mawar students, I pray for you all the best life can offer, never give up, and always reach for the sky.

Don’t start won’t be none!       …kan!

-some friends are forever-