Dreamy days

 We are never gone

Only forgotten 

And dreamy days come again

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As always, Mitch Albom never fails to intrigue me

With this one, he links us to God n His mysterious ways of aiding us in our times of need. 

God never leaves us, for He is always with us, every time, every where.

'the stranger in the lifeboat' tells of one who is drifting away in his life, having lost all his confidence towards God, blaming God for all his misfortunes, not knowing that the end of some thing is not actually the ultimatum, for God deals in unthinkable n mysterious ways, as i have stated earlier.

As expected, this novel is a good read, not only because one loves reading, but it is a comfort for the soul too.

Below are books i am currently reading too, taking turns reading each one, pages by pages, absorbing the contents n lessons, hopefully to indirectly help me reach contentment. I am into my fifth month reading them. Hahaa lama dh tuu ek. Well, they are a different kind of reading, as such the pleasure derived from reading is on another level I should say so. Nevertheless reading is a wonderful way to let your mind wander n wonder.

Layannn ..

dreamer

 

Brentford 3 Man U 1

 My thought:

How are they being paid thousands of British Pound to dish out that kind of game?

Just embarrassing. Pathetic would be a better choice of word.

Except for Mainoo ( i wonder why Amorim is so intent not to put him in d first eleven) n a couple others, d rest of d players were really shit. 

They didn't even track back n if they did it was half heartedly.

There was no urgency and d pace of d players n positioning was terrible. I can't name anyone because almost everyone was pathetic. U couldn't even stop a ball properly, u couldn't square a ball, ur game was so aimless that no teams from d premier league fear u no more. U guys were so slow in your thoughts n buildup. 

What pattern can we make out from d game?

None, there was none at all, especially when d midfielders got d ball d other players up front n wingbacks were just waiting for d ball when they should have come nearer n asked for it.

Bruno was given d opportunity to convert d penalty but d way he kicked d ball it would have been easier if he were to kick it straight to d keeper, notwithstanding d fact that Brentford keeper was equally good. Bruno was bad, well below his standard.

Looking at d players individually, they are actually excellent in their respective ways n skills but my thought goes to Amorim for his stubbornness in which he always insists d players to adapt to his system but he should be aware too that he needs to tweak here n there n make changes whenever necessary. His system n tactical are too rigid n too plain for everyone to see. If d first half doesn't work out well with regard to d tactic dished out, he should make changes for d second half. But no, he just maintains d ordinary n boring style. After playing d sixth game in d league, there is nothing to be proud of this Man U team. At all. 

Amorim has been given d players he asked for, and time as well, to rebuild d team, with state of d art facilities, but d results are still disastrous. I do not expect miracles to happen overnight but there's no fighting spirit on d field from d players. If u have to lose, at least lose after putting 100% effort. But it was almost nowhere to be seen in d game. Thus? He has to go. As simple as that. Unless his players perform miracles in the coming games, Amorim's stint is over.

U can't even go toe to toe with Brentford, what can one expect when they face d like of Liverpool n so on?

So long Amorim. 

Waiting for it to b good riddance. Honestly.

Cockwomble

 

Americans are so fucked ~

SWALK

 .. Don't ask me why

    But time has passed us by

Mesyuarat Tergempar Doha - sandiwara?

 Mesyuarat tergempar di Doha berakhir dengan mengutuk sekeras2nya tindakan Israel di atas serangan yang dilakukan baru2 ini. Itu saja yg mereka mampu lakukan padahal 54 ketua negara yg berkumpul melawan satu saja entiti Zionis.

Pelbagai retorik dinyatakn tetapi semuanya hambar, contohnya Israel tidak menghormati perjanjian n menyerang wakil perunding dr Hamas dll. Mana pernah Israel mengota kata2 mereka selama ini n secara perbadi, pandangan n kenyataan yg diberikan oleh para pembesar negara2 yg hadir seolah2 menunjukkn mereka ni naif atau berpura2 naif. Jika tiada tindakan fizikal diambil ke atas Israel dlm tempuh kurang dua minggu dr hari ini, mmg trnyatalah mereka yg hadir di Doha hanya pelakun sahaja. Atau lebih tepat lg munafiq.

Gaza yg diserang tanpa henti menghampiri dua tahun n hampir musnah keseluruhannya tiada satu pun pertemuan mahupun mesyuarat diadakn oleh negara Islam untuk mencari jalan penyelesaian. Bantuan pun hanya diberi secara sembunyi2. Tetapi Doha yg baru sekali dihentam dgn bom Israel terus menangis meminta simpati negara Islam n terus mengadakn perjumpaan tergempar yg hasilnya kosong.

Kalau beginilah hasilnya, pada siapa lagi kita letakkan harapan? Umum pun sedar negara2 Islam yg bersempadan dgn Palestin mempunyai kepentingan bersama dgn Israel. Mereka yg hadir di Doha hanyalah sebagai sandiwara sekiranya Israel tidak dikenakan apa2 tindakan dlm masa terdekat.

Benarlah kata2 Rasulullah akhir zaman nanti umat Islam mmg ramai tetapi hanya umpama buih di lautan saja.

Pada Allah saja kita berdoa n berserah harapan. Sesungguhnya semua ini dlm perancangan Dia yg kita tidak mampu mengerti pd ketika ini.

Once upon a story ~ 12 ~ tengok wayang

 Zaman bapak gua OCS balai Sungei Way, awal tahun 70an, selalu jgk la bapak gua bwk gua Ida n Nazam p tgk wayang kt panggung Kwong Wah depan balai tu. Masa tu panggung papan je. Mcm2 cite kitorg tgk: cite Walt Disney, cite cina, cite hindustan, cite action, cite melayu. Yang best nya kitorg Klu tgk wayang kt situ mesti masuk free punya lah. Silap hb siap dpt popcorn n minuman lg. Ye la, bapak gua OCS, beb. Dan bila dh masuk kitorg bebas nk duduk mn pun n kitorg biasanya akan duduk depan sekali. Punya la beso skrin kt depan tu n jenuh mendongak menonton wayang. Tapi kitorg xkisah pun sebab budak2, knn

Layan je la

Tapi bila dh beso xde pulak kitorg pegi tgk wayang kt situ lg. Dan bapak gua pun dh tuko balai PJ masa gua naik skola menengah. 

Tinggal kenangan jee

Tentang kita

 Tentang kita

Apakah masih teruja

Atau hanya

Sekadar sisa sisa

Kenangan suka duka

Menyinggah di kala

Rindu menyapa jiwa

Mengenang mu

Dalam dakapan senja

Hanya mengundang sendu

Kepatahan hati nan terasa

Dahulukala

Meragut semua suka

Semua duka

Merantai semua cita

Semua cinta

Tinggal asmara

Pergi tiada kembali

Hilang tiada pulang

Berlalu tiada ketemu

Rindu kian mencengkam

Perasaan terus menikam

Dan kita hanya mampu

Diam

Bungkam

~ nkc ~

Lekio 2nd September'25

How low can u go

 When I thought last season was bad enough @ d worst season ever for Man U and thing couldn't get any worse, well, Amorim has proved me wrong

They just lost to fourth division club in d Efl Cup

Sheer humiliation i must say especially so with all those names playing for d team

I mean, how low can u go

Amorim has never failed to surprise me

Perhaps he was good in d Portuguese league but that doesn't automatically make him good enough for d epl

With all d fanfares n hype surrounding him when he first came to Carrington, what's happening currently is an embarrassment 

Nevertheless everything must come to an end

Reminding myself ~

 

If I Must Starve

 

From the river to the sea Palestine will be free

InshaAllah 

Untuk Sali

Kematian itu 

Bukanlah pemergian

Sebaliknya ia

Adalah ketibaan

Kubur Itu bukan

Pintu kegelapan

Malahan ia adalah

Pintu menuju kecintaan

Apa yang kelihatan

Seolah tenggelam mentari

Sebenarnya adalah

Hening subuh pagi

Jiwa hanya

Menanggalkan pakaian

Untuk masuk ke alam

Tiada kesudahan

Yang dikira mati itu

Cuma ruh kembali

Ke tempat asli

 n abadi

Sesungguhnya

Kematian itu

Adalah hadirnya

Di Taman syurgawi

Maka jgn ditangisi

Kematian ini

Kerna hidup ini

Hanyalah diberi

Dan untuk diambil kembali

nkc Juli ‘25

Nazam 6/7 n Alex 12/7 passed away within a week 

of each other

my brother Nazam

 Nazam @ Ajam, my elder brother, passed away in the wee hour today

He and I were once acclaimed as twins by Mak, probably because the age gap was only a year apart, n that what made us very close during our childhood days

I would often follow him to his Chinese friends' home, either Christopher or King Wah, n sometimes to Devan, for a game of football, playing monopoly or just for d sake of going over to spend time there

D Khan’s brothers ~ Abang Nazam me Al Ajib

When he got a place to study in Mrsm, we would still get together during d monthly trip to see him in Seremban

At Mrsm i would always go to call him at his dorm though i was an outsider

But because I wasn't much different in size, d students there always thought i was one of them

Bak n Mak would take us to restoran Fatimah for d usual roti canai

D roti canai was plain but since Bak liked it so much, that was d place we would go each time we were in Seremban, unless la Mak had prepared something for a picnic by d hill at Mrsm

While at Mrsm, he was so engrossed in music that later on in his life he played in a few bands as d lead guitarist 

I went to see him play here n there, in pubs, night clubs, hotels lounge whenever i could

Nazam too was just like me in our approaches towards our beliefs thus he always shared with me his findings n critical thoughts n understanding 

He had four children, and his two boys also ply their trade in music as well

1990s Nazam Mat Jeng female singer Robot

When he had a stroke sometime in 2014 if I'm not mistaken, it brought to an end his career in music

After recovering, but not fully, he maintained his critical mind pursuing his other interests which were reading n writing

He had an excellent command of d language n his knowledge is far n wide n i always look forward to his writings

The last time i met him was two Sundays ago

He was down with fever n recuperating n since i was back in Pj, I used d opportunity to visit him with my wife n Nia

We spent more than a couple of hours chatting about his situation n his experience n life

He even played a song for Nia ‘Just d two of us’ n shared a song he composed quite recently albeit playing d keyboard with only his left hand

Nazam did complain to me that he was having a slight difficulty in breathing but I didn't take it seriously then

I jokingly said that probably age got d better of us

We even had a stick of cigarette while chatting outside his house that day @ our last smoke together

Before leaving that day, i hugged him tightly n said that we would go Zafir's wedding in Melaka together come August

Our last get together

But God had decided

Last night he complained of an excruciating chest pain. Adam, his son, took him to GH where he was straight away attended to by doctors in d emergency department

They tried their best but at around 2am they knew he couldn't be saved

His children crowded around him reciting prayers n d kalimah syahadah till his last moment

And this morning when i was supposed to go to Kuantan, i left for his place in Setapak after subuh n reached d surau in d nick of time

I managed to bathe him, help with d shroud, prayed for him n sent him to his final resting place

I controlled my tears then although it pained me n i still hold back my sadness though tears did roll my cheeks when i kissed him n stroked his face for d final time

It's too much to take in at this time especially so when we had made plan to get together later this month, d five Khan's brothers but alas it was never meant to be

And now that he is no longer with us i can only offer my endless prayer for him 

Nazam, please know, that i will miss u so much n sorely and i really hope u would be together with Bak n Mak n Kak Aishah

One day InshaAllah we will meet again

Happy moment @ once upon a time