Happy Birthday luv!

 ~ Forever InshaAllah ~

The Mirror

*The Mirror*

(Edmund Burke 1729-1797,
Irish Philosopher)

I look in the mirror
And what do I see
A strange looking person
That cannot be me.

For, I am much younger
And not nearly so fat
As that face in the mirror
I am looking at.

Oh, where are the mirrors
That I used to know
Like the ones which were
Made thirty years ago

Now all things have changed
And I'm sure you'll agree
Mirrors are not as good
As they used to be.

So never be concerned,
If wrinkles/ extra flab appear
For one thing I've learned
Which is very clear,

Should your complexion
Be less than perfection,
It is really the mirror
That needs correction.

All u need is love

Insignificant

Insignificant
Is how you always treat me
And the hopes vanish

nkc haiku ~ juli '19

A cup of story

Come and pour me a cup
Of your story
Let me have a taste of
It
I'll let your words
Slither through
Dance your emotions away
With me
I'll watch you silently
If you want me to 
And if you need me 
I'll catch you

~Iliya Khan~

Layankan aje..

It's my fifth day in pj, spending most of my time by Bak's side. 
D daily chores would start roughly around 10am n end at 10pm. A twelve hours job sort of lah.. 
After waking up, it's time for Bak to have his bath. Then i would help him to dress up, his collared tshirt n kain pelikat, and then he would comb his hair n he definitely would require his dab of brylcreem. And if it's okey with him, i would apply some aloe vera lotion on his face. Next would be his breakfast n medicine time. Usually after subuh, around 7, i would go out to buy breakfast, n try to have something different every morning, n buy his newspaper. So far, he had had lontong, roti canai, nasi goreng n traditional delicacies like bengkang. And before n after lunch, Bak would take his nap. Sometimes even after asar he would insist me to help him get into bed. I tried to accomodate Bak as much as possible n everything has gone well. Alhamdulillah for giving me this opportunity to be doing what a son should do for his beloved father. 

Bak n me

Once he had taken his dinner, it would b goodnite for him at 9++pm. Still i would stay by his side until around  ten, just to make sure he's sleeping soundly, n simply to look at him. 
Looking at him while he's asleep would always bring back memories of yesteryears. Then i would have mixed emotions, which i admit is not good for d soul. But being mere mortal, what do u expect, right? Layankn je la.. 
So what do i do to kill d time, other than attending to Bak?  Well, not really to kill d time but to fill d time wisely. So far, i have finished two books on Muhammad Ali n P. Ramlee. Both are extraordinary persons, with their charisma n personality second to none. Since the books are biography, they made me feel like i know both of them personally. For one, books have never failed to thrill me, enlighten me with new knowledge n ideas n insight, thus my love for reading. 
Other than reading, i use d time to contemplate on life, my life that is. Since i am well past 50 years old, it is wise to slow down on certain things, perhaps to even stop doing certain things. Like smoking hahaa
Though i acknowledge d fact that age has taken its toil on me, i am very thankful that He allows me to have a good health until today, albeit d sore joints here n there, now n then.  But all in all, for my age, i am as fit as a fiddle.  Alhamdulillah  Alhamdulillah.
Oh, I've been to d laundry once  n have daily trip to d market n later InshaAllah i will go to d playground with Nia. Layankn dia, knn
This week i have rested more than enough due to d fact that there's nothing much to do here in pj. 
Once I'm back home, life will be back to it normal routine. 
As for now, layankan je.. Sebab hidup memang untuk dilayankan je pun. 

Till then, ciao!! 

November days..

November is coming to the end. Every time November appears, what crosses the mind is: school holiday is around d corner!! Well, it's d same thought this time around too. But priority is something that i always adhere to. On d 5th,d spm candidates started their exam. Just like previous years, i would always have my eleventh hour session d night before d english 1119 exam. But this time around, d naval base was having its ops gerhana, meaning, light had to be switched off from 7pm to 7am. But i still managed to have a brief session after dawn before d exam started. I was anticipating question on letter to come out for directed writing but d question asked d candidates to write an article. Layankan aje.. Hope they, d students, did enough to better their previous achievements. InshaAllah 

As for my form four students, i managed to finish marking their exam scripts by d first week of November. Phew! Pantas seperti kilat, gua cakap luu. 

After that, when i thought this year's work n responsibilities had come to an end, i was asked to train d under sixteen football team. Honestly i was reluctant but after much persuasion from d players n d manager, i gave in. I told d players that i would only send a team if they live up to my expectations. So we trained for about 7 days. 

Oh, in between d training session, i took some time to go back to perasu n limau kasturi. It was two years ago since i last set foot in limau though i did visit ku last year after knowing he was ill. 

Nia at kak zah restaurant 

I felt glad to be back,especially in limau kasturi. Met matchok n family, went ronda² with nordin, lepak at pak muda for teh separuh n meeting up with d regulars n doing things i usually did  everytime i was back. 

Zu with mok

Guala n ayahanda

Nia n amanda n fatin

I stayed d nite at a hotel in gua musang coz i didn't want my missus n nia to feel uncomfortable since they were not used to sleepover at limau. 

D next morning before leaving for home, went to meet kak pah at perasu n visit ku's grave. 

Alhamdulillah for d visit. 

When i got back to school d next day, we continued football training, n though i didn't think d players were in tip top condition, i allowed them to participate in d tournament held on d next day. And what do you know, we managed to become d champion!!  Alhamdulillah 

Campeone!! 

On another note, nia got 5As n 1B for her upsr. Alhamdulillah 

These last couple of weeks it has been raining kuini. Without fail, there will be kuini to pick in d morning n everyday either d neighbours or friends at school would receive them fruit. Sebab banyak bebeno, gua cakap lu hahaa 

Daily collection! 

And now d holiday is finally here, i think i deserve this break. Nevertheless today i am in pj to look after Bak since Al is away for a holiday in Indonesia. Last monday akak came for a week, and now it's my turn to take care of Bak. Actually it is more to accompany him n yes, it's something i look forward to.
Nia is also here with me, n InshaAllah we'll be here till nx week. Hope i can be a good son to Bak, InshaAllah. 

And with that, November ends.

Aku segala~gala

Engkau di mana?

Aku ada pada engkau,
Apakah tidak kau lihat?

Setiap kali kau bertanya,
Aku ada di sana.
Setiap kali kau merindu,
Aku ada di situ.

Setiap apa yang kau lihat,
Aku jua yang terpahat.
Setiap kali kau teringat,
Hanya Aku yang harus diingat.

Di barat timur utara selatan,
Hanya Aku yang kelihatan.

Setiap kali kau ingin  sesuatu,
Tetap Aku ada untuk mu.

Kerna Aku Perindu,
Kerna Aku Pengasih,
Kerna Aku Penyayang,
Kerna Akulah segala~gala Nya!

~ nkc ~

Insane species

Today's date

Thought u should know,
In case u don't..

Today's date is
9102019
Either way u read it

Knn

D' elephant ~

says Cinderella

Have courage.

And be kind.

Cinderella

all the things i didn't say

All the things I didn’t say

I’m dying

I know that feeling

But my heart is screaming

Deafening

Trying to say

But nothing seems to be okay

Time and time I’ve tried

But everything doesn’t sound right

Perhaps something is never meant

To be

Shared

Said

Only best

To be

Left

Buried

Immortalized

In death

-nkc-

Buzzing

first harvest, beb!! 

layan..

before you leave..

Life is about seeing how much footprint you can leave

Before you leave..

hanya Kamu

Yang aku mahu

Sedikit hujan

Secangkir kopi

Dan Kamu

-nk-

mengapa harus jumpa..

assalamualaikum wbh

hari ni kt skola layan sambutan raya. gua sebagai ajk persembahan, menjadi pemain gitar iringan untuk kaum yg nak nyanyi le. dan seperti biasa, kaum mesti request gua nyanyi, sebagai penutup. klu ikutkn malas nk main, sebab dh lama pun tak main depan khalayak, dan dh tua gamaknya, tapi layankn aje.. jadi gua pun buboh selagu, lagu d'lloyd.

untuk tontonan lu orang yang melayan.. 

layan..

kesepian & kepedihan

Kesepian ialah kebahagiaan

Kepedihan penantian ialah kerinduan

-         Songket Berbenang Emas    -

cite raya

Dua hari sebelum raya, seperti lazimnya, gua balik pj. Sempat la solat terawih sekali, sahur sekali dan berbuka puasa dua kali kt rumah pj dgn bak n al..

kitorang n bak

Takde apa yang special sgt raya sebab mak dah takde rasanya. Biasanya mak la yang paling sibuk kalau malam raya nak isi kueh dalam balang la, tukar langsir la, tukar sarung kusyen, dan tukar carpet. Biasanya sebab gua dan family yang selalu je ada kt rumah pj malam raya, kitorang la rescue dan layankan mak. Tahun ni, pagi raya, macam biasa Lau datang dan membawa sepeti buah lai. Tengahari sikit abang n family pulak datang. Kamal n thoriq pun ada jugak. Kiranya meriah la jugak. Pastu ellis n kak lin pun tiba.

Petang pas zohor, gua bawak kain baju yang dh pakai ke dobi. Bawak la kitab satu untuk membaca sambil menunggu kain dibasuh. Sudahnya gua berkenalan dgn seorang budak india ni, sanjieev rasanya nama dia. Lepak kt laundry berbual n terus pegi kedai india kt SS5 pekena paper thosai. Layan..

dataran lee, mana lg..

Balik tu, Sali n anak2 seme ada kt rumah. Kiranya meriah terus sampai ke petang. Malam tu sebab dah janji dengan family, layankan diorang pegi cruising ke kl. Singgah dataran merdeka, amik gambo kt masjid jame’ n lalu je kt klcc sebab orang punya la ramai dan nia pun dh tido

keletihan.

gaby, nia, angie

masjid jame' tuuuu

Esuknya lepak je kt rumah dgn bak n al, pastu pas zohor n lunch, kitorang pun balik la lekio. Tapi sebelum tu pegi ziarah kubur mak kt shah alam dulu. Pkl 330 gerak dari shah alam line clear je. Bila sampai bukit beruntung, peeehhhhh!, kenderaan bersusun terus sampai sungkai. Adoyai! Hari pulak hujan, siap nak terkencing lagi tapi tahan je la sampai la bayo tol kt sungkai baru singgah toilet. All in all, 4jam steng jugak la gua driving hari tu. The longest time ever from pj to lekio. Hahaa layan.. 

happy family

Jumaat, dh janji dgn kak minah, terus ke bagan dato’. Dh dua tahun tak datang. Macam biasa, makan kt rumah kak minah tak pernah tak menyelerakan. Sudahnya, petang pukul enam jugak la baru nyampai blk rumah. 

klcc hari raya 

Sabtu pulak layan ipoh rumah abg mi n midi. Sedap nasi minyak dgn kari kambing kak nor masak. Mee kari kt rumah midi pun boleh tahan, tapi lopis memang terbaek! Siap tapau lahi haha dah pukul 5 ptg baru la balik.

Ahad pagi kaklong dh balik sg buloh sbb isnin ada kelas. Gua pun dok bawak bertenang je. Isnin hantar lisa n arief balik asrama. Selasa skool as usual dh. Punya la malas nk ngajo. Mood raya tak habis lg gamaknya, tapi sebenonya penat, beb..

Raya ni empat orang dh sahabat n kenalan gua meninggal. Raya ketiga, ku, meninggal. Esuknya raya keempat zul penang, junior kt skola seaport pulak meninggal. Hari kelima, zailani, geng navy kt stadium meninggal. Semalam, pak dut, yg dok kt kg jelutong, pun dh meninggal. Maknanya tak lama dah tuuu, kn 

ku

Hari ni klu ikut tarikh dah 13 syawal, maknanya tahun hijiriah dah dua tahun mak takde. Kalau dikenang memang la sangat sedeh n rindu, kann, tapi layan je la

Semuga Allah memudahkan hidup n mati gua inshaAllah

Al Baqarah 2:115

http://ku2blog.blogspot.com/2009/11/ikan-di-dalam-air.html

Sorry

Sorry

When i secretly keep your pic in my phone gallery

When i write your name again n again in my diary

When i whisper ' i love u' silently

When i wanna tell about u to everybody

When i think of u in my prayer daily

Sorry when i want u so badly

So terribly

Sorry when i love u so affectionately

~nkc~

Pulang

Teman2 aku hilang
Seorang seorang
Kerna hari semakin petang
Nanti senjakala
Aku juga pulang
Bila hayat melayang
Kembali pd tuhan

nkc

Cukup

cerita ceriti

Macam2 yg terjadi beberapa bulan yang telah berlalu ni, tinggal lagi xdan @ malas nk update kt blog dh. Gamaknya dh tua, dan kalau dikenang, lebih sepuluh tahun dh melayan blog ni dan dh ada hampir 2000 postings, beb.. banyak tu, knnnnn hahahaa

Pagi tadi gua n missus pegi mrsm parit utk hari anugerah cemerlang sbb Lisa dapat anugerah exam icgse dia yg tahun lepas tuu. Alhamdulillah.hopefully she can perform as well as her igcse, if not better, for her spm later this year inshaAllah

Lisa + igcse

Last week dengan rasminya berakhir dh keje2 sukan gua utk tahun ni. Bayangkan dari januari lg sampai la ke minggu lepas tanpa gagal gua mesti ada kt padang tiap2 minggu, klu pun idak tiap2 hari. Masa kt sekolah januari n februari tu selaku s/u sukan, gua melayan mini marathon, sukantara, acara pra kejohanan dan temasya sukan sekolah. Jenuh buat padang siapkan gelanggang. Penat badan penat minda gua cakap lu..

nkc flying again!!

swiss of d east

Habis je sukan skola, terus gua latih budak bola pulak awal mac. Mujur la celah2 tu cuti, gua n missus pun pegi berjalan ke Kashmir. Layan beb! Kashmir memang canteek: tempat dia, orang2 kt situ lawa2 mcm org turki, makan pun okey je, tinggal lg banyak jugak ketinggalan tempat ni sebab Kashmir ni kan kawasan bergolak, menjadi rebutan antara india n Pakistan. Tapi gulmarg n sonamarg memang terbaek!! Memang swiss of d east gua cakap lu. Oh kitorang sempat jugak pegi delhi n agra, pergi taj mahal dan lain2.. kiranya x pus jugak la jalan kt india hari tu hahaa

Balik cuti tu terus je sambung train bola. Tiap2 petang tanpa gagal.. ada sepetang tu, blk training sambil layan pokok2 kt rumah, ada sepokok tu kt pangkal penuh anai2, terus gua siram racun anai2 lee tp gua terhidu racun anai2, menyebabkan gua loya n sakit badan n cirit birit selama seminggu, tapi training bola tetap dilayankan jugak! Penat jangan cite laaa. Minggu berakhir je tournament bola weekend lepas,, gua tido secukup2nya hahaa

campeone!!

Mujur la bawah 15 champion walaupun bawah 18 kalah suku akhir. Kira berbaloi la training panas2 n sebulan dok kt padang, knnnn Alhamdulillah

oh, minggu lepas jugak ramai anak2 balik: iliya, arief n abil + nia ada kt rumah. cuma lisa je x balik, tp lisa balik hari ni, kn, cuti weekend. kiranya meriah la jugak kt rmh..

Ni nk nyambut puasa baru la bawak bertenang. inshaAllah minggu depan balik pj jumpa bak n siblings, pastu kita puas2 la mengEsakan Nya, tauuuu!

Ttfn!

Until forever

Though it's never mentioned

It has never been forgotten

Like a faded photograph

That tells a story

Of love n memory

Dearly dearly

It Remains

Until forever

~ ñkç ~

White. Again..

D picket fence

White again..

In borrowed time

We live in borrowed time
In our children's world
Keeping up with today's
Needs & demands

When we should put away
Put off the dreams
Of endless thoughts
And wants
For we are living
In borrowed time

8 dec 18
11.22 am Dikili

do u not know..

Happy birthday Bak!!

Bak n me..

1st march - Bak's 90th birthday!
it's not everyday u get to see somebody turns 90, right.
happy birthday Bak! may Allah shower you with His love always
luv you forever n ever!!

85 today

85, she would have been today

Rindu..

Aku cuba untuk tidak merindui mu

Tapi mana kan mampu

bila setiap hari bertemu

Di dalam doa syahdu

Miss u mak. A lot..

nkc

pas isya’

self portrait of me

Old habit..

..dies hard

kalau lu tau

Nikmat!

Segala2nya adalah nikmat, kalau lu tau.

Memang le pada zahirnya segala yang sedap, seronok, meriah dll tu nikmat, termasuk juga memiliki kaum keluarga, harta benda, kesihatan yang baik dan macam2 lagi la..

Tapi bila mana segalanya itu di ambil balik oleh Empunya, apakah hilang nikmat?

Yes n no.

Ya, bila mana dikenang barang yang lepas memang menusuk qalbu rasa kehilangan dan kerinduan.

Tidak, kerana gua melihat segala yang ditarik balik itu sebagai nikmat jugak bila tak dapat lagi mengecapi keseronokan yang pernah dimiliki dulu. Makna kata, kekurangan dan kehilangan jugak adalah nikmat, kalau lu tau.

Sebab? Orang yang tak memiliki apa2 tu la yang sebenar2 orang @ hamba. Udah tiada apa padanya kecuali Dia.

Kalau lu tau..

-Syukur selalu-

-hasbi rabbi-

tua, beb!

Tua, beb!

Itu la yg gua rasa sebulan dua ni, lebih2 lg minggu ni , minggu cuit raya cina.

Idak le buat amende sangat pun tapi kt skola memang sibuk kt padang je la, selang dua tiga hari mesti turun padang siapkan line track 400m n segala jenis gelanggang: bolasepak, bola baling, bola jaring dah siap tapi perlu dibalas lagi garisannya sebelum pertandingan antara rumah sukan; yang menanti nk bukak skola lusa tulat nanti nk perabiskan trek 400m sebab baru siap 100m x 2 je, curve belum buat lg. pastu nk buat gelanggang lontar peluru dan lempar cakera dan lompat jauh, semuanya serba dua.. layankan aje..

Cuti ni melayan kt rumah jela, menarah rumput le, tanam nenas sikit, dan tanpa gagal tiap2 petang myapu daun2 kering yg berguguran beribu2 tuu. Daun kuini, beb. Pokoknya tengah salin daun baru, tu yang nyapu tak habis2 pagi petang. Ni dh masuk hampir dua minggu dh, pun tak habis lg .

Celah2 tu layan missus buat projek signboard n wheelbarrow. Wheelbarrow dh siap, signboard pun hampir2.

Oh, selasa lepas ajak football players lari keliling base, 6km+-, n main bola pastu dgn diorg. Angah pun ikut jog jugak.

Tapi tu la, bila dh buat macam2 keje, lebih2 lg menyapu daun, dan projek signboard, memang tangkap pinggang gua cakap lu..

Petang semalam pas siap tulis kt signboard tu n tanam nenas, memang sendi kt lutut n pinggang punya la ketat bila nk berdiri @ diluruskan semula. Bila berdiri je takleh nk tegak terus, kena tunggu kejap bongkok sikit, pastu baru okeyy. Aduss!

Bak kata omputih, I’m beginning to feel my age. Tua dh gua ni, beb! Dan sebenonya ini la nikmat kalau lu tau..

Tak faham?

Next posting please!!

projek cuti skola..

tengah tekun, free hand tu, beb!!

gemuk lepak dgn gua, bermalas2an..

almost completed..

layan....