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Man proposes, God disposes...

Salam again.

thot of writing two days ago but as the title above states, i was unable to..

it was alisya's birthday then, (she's my third child) and i was planning to take the family out for an outing that night. late afternoon, it began to pour, and it continued till the next day, mind you! about 545pm, i had to fetch my son at school. when i was about a km away, the road heading to the school was flooded. so i had to manoeuvre my way around the housing area near the school in order to rescue my son.. To cut a long story short, i found my son with his friends happily playing in the waist-high water.. Peh! anyway, when i was about to reach home, the road leading to my house was flooded. still, i managed to reach home safely. because of the continuous rain, i cancelled the outing planned. that night, as the rain continued to pour down, my neighbours' houses were flooded. by midnite, the level of water rose high enough to enter my living. luckily i had anticipated this and had moved whatever stuffs to higher ground. i prayed hard that the water level would not rise any further. due to a mix of anxiety as well as tiredness, i felt asleep only to wake up at 3am. no, it wasn't anything, but maybe the thot of my home being overwhelmed with water made me got up. thankfully the water level was no more higher than previous seen.

when i got up at dawn, as morning break, the first view from the balcony was that my house had become an island sort of. water, water, water all around. thank god the water that had managed to seep into the living was within control. so as not to panic, i had breakfast and then only went out into the water. around the compound of my home, it was tulang kering deep. as i made my way outside the gate, i found the water to be knee deep and at certain areas, almost to my waist. i never thot that this would happen to me, putting aside the experience i had in limau kasturi many, many years ago. not in this residential area. i had no choice but to be absent from school. the same goes for the rest of my family members. many neighbours had to move temporarily to a hall for shelter. i was adamant, and stayed put in my home. that evening, the water level receded by a mere 4inches but it was enough for the living and my porch to be cleaned up..

many plans went astray. still i'm grateful that my family, home and properties were safe. as for now, my family is the utmost important to me. home and properties you can work out your ways to get them again, but family: wow! it can never be the same coz God creates everybody in their own unique ways, look and characteristics as well as other traits.

what have i learned from this experience? for one, give your love to the one you love everytime possible so that you'll never regret. another lesson, well, the title above implies everything, kan..

last words for this moment: dream on, but never expect miracle!

it's zohor, so i've got to go. Ciao!  oct 2008

kabus n kabut

dan kabus

dan kabut

berlalu

dan berlalu

hilang gelap

timbul terang

nyata wajah

dalam berserah..

nkc

jammin

Salam.

Lama dh gua main gitar. Sejak form three lagi.. lama bebeno tu, beb. Tapi tak pandai setara mana pun. Boleh le main untuk seronok2 layan kepala, layan kaum.. lebih tigapuluh tahun main gitar dah. Peh! Lama tu, beb! Dalam gua tak berapa pandai main ni, gua boleh gak nyanyi sambil2 main gitar. Kiranya standard entertainer la.. : ) sape biasa lepak dengan gua boleh verify apa yg gua cite ni.. time gua tengah giler muzik dulu, macam2 jugak la dilayan.. masuk contest sana sini.. ada yg menang, ada yg kecundang, biasa la tu, kan.. tapi sekarang ni gua jarang jamming dah.. jarang2 sekali, jamming dengan students yang mai lepak kt bilik gua.. once a fortnight ke, gua jamming dengan ‘the cincirat’, kaum gua kt kampong ni.. tapi biasanya layan dengan gaban je, sebab jamming kt rumah dia pun.. ada drum set, gitar bass, rhythm, keyboard.. tapi takde kaum main.. gua n gaban je lebehnya.. kitorang main lagu retro je la.. sekali jamming mau 25-30 lagu.. main sampai puas la.. tapi sooner or later all this must come to an end.. kan, kan..

Ni semua sekadar melayankan saje.. sementara boleh..

Layan..

Aku, Kami n Dia

Aku, Kami dan Dia...

Kartolo: Coba kau lihat mengapa dalam Al Quran ini sesetengah ayatnya Allah itu membahasakan dirinya 'aku', di masa lainnya dinyatakan dirinya "Kami" seolah-olah rami, terkadang digunakan "Dia" seolah-olah orang lain yang menyatakan sedangkan itu kalamNya?

Wak Jono : Dibahasakan 'aku' ketika diri dzat itu masih belum menyatu dengan sifat, dinyatakan 'kami' seperti lebih dari satu kerana dzat sudah bersatu dengan sifat beserta asma' dan afa'al sementara 'Dia' pula apabila dzat itu kembali menjadi Nur.

Kartolo: Nggak faham aku...

Wak Jono: Hahaha!

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Tiadalah ia melainkan fana

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so? layan je la....

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eksistensi manusia

Berkatalah Syekh Siti Jenar: “ Sunan Bonang, anda undang saya untuk datang ke Demak. Saya enggan untuk datang ke sana. Sebab saya merasa tidak dibawah atau diperintah oleh siapa pun, kecuali diri saya. Perintah Pribadi yang saya ikuti, dan selain itu tak ada saya patuhi perintahnya.”

“Bukankah kita ini sesama mayat? Mengapa seseorang memerintah orang lain? Manusia itu sama antara satu sama yang lain. Sama-sama tidak mengetahui siapa Hyang Sukma itu. Yang disembah itu hanya nama Nya. Meski demikian, dia bersikap sombong dan merasa berkuasa memerintah sesame bangkai.”

(Dikutip dari Pupuh Asmarandana (7): 51-52)

gua kata kat guala!

udah!

udah!

melayan duniawi

esuk

lusa

dah nak pergi..

نگ

of today..

at 6plus was awake for subuh.. after bath at 8 went for breakfast with the family.. masa keluar rumah tu, my missus took a look at the pelam epal tree planted across the road. Tengok2, buah mangga epal sebanyak 7 biji, buah sulung la kiranya, dah ghaib! Adoyai! Memang terbako, gua cakap lu! Siap sumpah seranah kt sape yang ngambilnya.. bio dia sakit perut cirit birit ke apa ke, janji dia sedar sikit.. memang kurang ajar! Kalau nk, mintak le.. dan kalau curi pun, tinggal le sebiji dua. Ni tidak, rapat dibaginya! Kita jenuh la tunggu buah tu besar 2,3 bulan ni.. tinggal lagi seminggu dua nak petik, ada kutu berahak buat giler ciluk dulu! Macam cilaka!

nevertheless, we still headed to dollah’s for breakfast consisting of the standard: nasi lemak, roti bakar, telur setengah masak and the tarik.. balik tu mesin rumput kt tepi jalan. While doing so, pondered about the mangga epal incident. Gua mintak pada Nya agar gua tak buat keje bangang macam gitu, dan semuga mamat yang ciluk epal tu diberi petunjuk, dan gua pun meredhai apa yang telah terlepas itu..

sambil mesin rumput pagi ni, gua pakai la raincoat untuk elakkan rumput2 basah melekat pada pakaian.. konon2nya tindakan inovatif la.. rumput yg dimesin basah2 embun ni kalau melekat kt pakaian jenuh nk tanggal.. jadi, mulanya semua ok, berjalan lancar, hanya gua terasa agak panas, berkuap la senang cite.. sementara nk habis mesin rumput tu, gua terasa panas macam nak pitam. Sebaik je habis mesin, gua pun tanggalkan raincoat tu, dan gua tengok t-shirt dan track bottom basah lenjun, sial! Rupa2nya gua umpama duduk dalam sauna tadi.. patut la berkuap. memang bengong betul.. sabooo je..

after 2^nd shower for the day, went to ashiri’s daughter wedding. Otw back, singgah at tajul’s open house. Dh kenyang dh sebenonya makan kt rumah ashiri, tapi the rojak and tepung pelita were too tempting to resist. And true to my thought, the tepung pelita memang cukup serba serbinya, cukup lemak cukup lembut cukup manis. To sum up, terbaek! Balik tu, after zohor, was supposed to go to kg gajah. While waiting, watched tamil movie ‘kakka kakka’. Memang layan, gua cakap lu, better than most Hindustani movie la.. at 4, tengah2 stim layan cite tu, my ex student, leftenan faiz, came, and we left for kg gajah. Stopped to see abil at maahad sat to pass him his stuff. Just like yesterday, it was past 7 before I finally reached home. Now, after dinner, after fetching the kids from ngaji, it’s time to prepare for bed. Letih bebeno rasenya.. esok skolah, daaa! Aagh!

of yesterday..

Of yesterday..

It was a Saturday replacement class for the raya holiday we had. I hated it, to be frank, but what to do, kan.. layan je la. The rain was pouring from dawn till 9. Guess that made the situation of being at school bearable, in term of weather la.. While in 4 kenanga, had a jamming session to kill the time. Lama tak main gitar, rusty, beb! no lesson because it’s the school’s raya celebration. Nothing special: food consisted of nasi empet, roti jala, kari ayam, rendang, soto, fruit.. there were presentations by students while the crowd enjoyed the food..

After zohor went to rumah abang usop, my missus’ cousin. Wedding adah. Abg usop passed away late last year, so we were there to make sure the family would remain close-knit. At 3 went to mandah with abg tahir, tengok tanah dan ikan sangkar. Abg tahir was interested to acquire a piece of land for fizi, his son, while I was more towards the ikan sangkar projek.. tenguk ikan beribu2 tengah tawaf dalam sangkar memang teruja.. dekat maghrib baru la sampai rumah. Tua, beb!

At night missus pulak got extra class at school, sent n fetch her, and in between, layan lisa, arief and nia.. had dinner with the kids. At 11 went to gaban’s. jamming session with the cincirat! Lama tak jamming, 2 months ago was the last time. Main gitar mula2 rusty, pastu okay pulak.. suara pulak mula2 nafas tak cukup, pastu okay pulak. Tapi lepas-lepas tu, habis suara dibuatnya. Maklum je la kalau dh jamming almost 25 songs.. gaban was on the drum, I was the guitarist cum singer. Peoih and khairul were the faithful fans, sambil2 prepare joints after joints. memang layan.. at one part tu gaban mintak lagu jamal, gua pun cakap kt dia main lagu, ‘tak sudi memandang tidak mengapa..’ gitu2 la, tapi gaban cakap lagu tu tak best. Habis tu, gua pun tanya la kt dia, lagu apa best, dia pun cakap lagu ni, dan dia nyanyi dengan muka cerennya, ‘tak sudi memandang tidak mengapa…’ pulak! Lagu yang sama tu, beb! Suka hati dia je.. Gua gelak sampai tak tahan, terpaksa take five, gua cakap lu.. by 1 am the session was over, and after a fag, we called it a night.. layan tv sat before dozing off at 2.

sang saka

kisah sang saka. lu baca la sendiri kt suratkhabo atas tu..

dan bunga bunga berguguran

Dan bunga bunga berguguran

Ditinggalkan

Dibawa derusan

Bila tiada lagi haruman

Bila hilang kemanisan

Bila tiba saat dijanjikan

Dan bunga bunga berguguran

5^th sept ‘12 -nk-

Everyday I fall in love

Everyday I fall in love

Humbled by the majestic Ungku Busu hill

Fascinated by the vastness of the skies

Calmed with the chirping of birds

Soothed by the breeze on my cheek

With the ordinary everyday things..

Everyday I fall in love

For the dreams to dream

For the games to play

For the flowers to smell

For the barefoot walk around the yard

For the life I’m living..

Everyday I fall in love

Watching the sunset in awe

Respecting the ants industry

Having silly thoughts to dwell

Touching and reaching out

For the miracle called human being..

Everyday I fall in love

With You.. Zنگ

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