farewell, mak..

-may 2011-

mak, @ bainah bt senawi, my mother in law, passed away today at 12.52pm. she was 88.

yesterday, on the way home from my parents place after eidul adha celebration, my family and I stopped by at kak bedah’s house, my eldest sister in law, to visit mak.

mak had been bedridden for the past 3 months, since the fall at kak enon’s place.

however the past month or so, she just kept to her close eyes mode, opening them only during the periodic bath session. it was last raya when I saw her opening her eyes for a long time, smiling to us and mumbling few words. it was like a ray of hope in term of recovery. so I thought. before, she was considered fit for her age, healthy and always smiling, albeit the occasional hay fever. but after that fall, she didn’t want to get up and she kept lying on the bed, crying and complaining about the pain behind her head. then, after a while, she slipped off to her close eyes mode. we would never really know whether she was awake or asleep. but the food and drink given to her, she would continue having them, in small quantity. once in a while she would open her eyes. but that was it. being senile, she seldom had much to say anyway.

-taken during raya 2011-

but yesterday late afternoon when we saw her, I could see that she was slipping away but I just didn’t have the heart to tell it to my missus. then at noon today, on the way to bagan datoh, I stopped by again at kak bedah’s to drop off my wife. mak was her yesterday self. but at quarter to 1, her breathe suddenly slowed down, and everyone there, (kak wan and abg yaakub, nazira and din, abg tapa and kak min, far’ah, kak bedah,yah, abg tahir and kak pau, iliya, my missus and me) knew that she was about to leave us. abg tapa and my missus were reciting and repeating the shahadah to mak. mak stopped breathing then, and we thought that was it, when suddenly she opened her eyes, stared into nothingness, for a while, and slowly closed them back. tears came out from her eyes, and she was gone.

mak, I had the opportunity to be your son in law for slightly over 15 years, and we had our moments, which I fondly remember and will be etched forever in memory, and only now, after holding back my tears, I am crying for you. i’ll miss you, mak..

-innalillahi wainnailaihirajiun-