live a life....

salam.
today is the 12th day of the school holiday. being a teacher, everyone must assume that i'm having a good time, what with the holiday another 40 days or so to go. hmmm... partly, yes it's true, that i'm having a good time, though i would rather call it quality time spent: with my lil' ones, missus, and obviously myself lah..
in these twelve days, quite a lot of things have been done, and the kids were the one getting the best of everything. i'd been back to my parents place in pj twice: took the kids out for outing to their uncle's place, browsing and shopping for books at borders, buying dvd for them at curve, having domino pizza for supper at their tok bak and tok mak's place, and later at home, every other day or so, mesti go for window shopping, bought them a hamster in between( to give a friend to fatty boom-boom, the hamster at home) a school of little fish to be put in the bowl,
and finally this afternoon, took them for lunch at fatty's cafe. kena chicken chop, beb! sekali-kala... normally a plate would be shared by two, but today everyone had a plate of cc with black pepper sauce, coleslaw, fries, and some green. menangis, gua cakap lu.. i always hope that they would be satisfied and content, but being kids, all five of my lil' ones, ada saja kehendak dunia mereka yang tak berkesudahan. layankan saje, tapi berpada-pada juga.. maybe i'm the one at fault here kot... well, so far, they are okay, though they have been reminding @ pestering non-stop to take them snorkelling next week. pulak! tu pun nak kena layan. not that i mind taking them to this kind of places, but i would be the one in the water, controlling my golongan marhaen @ rakyat jelata not to stray away from the group. my missus would be on shore, killing the time reading ke, or doing whatever else, except being in the water. it's okay actually, if you wanna be father and husband mithali, konon-kononnya..
as for my missus, she's taking everything in her stride. as usual, she doesn't want anything, been brought up in such a way, but still i insisted her to choose the slipcover material for the 5-year 0ld out-dated ikea sofa at home. though things are rather costly these days, and fulfilling the lil' ones needs as well as my missus limited demand is quite tough to adhere, still, the smile,
the genuine and honest smile on their faces once they've got their wishes, wipe out all my tiredness, fatigue, worries, albeit just for a while.
before, when i was single, and having the time of my life (1981-1995, those were the years of meriah time!) i never thought i would be having this kind of life. God is Great in the sense that i was so bad in every way( not bad, coz it would be an understatement. difficult and terrible sound better), and God gave me this in return. this means everything. A happy family: my wife, whom i fondly call adek, and my lovely children; iliya, abil, lisa, arief and dania. both me and my wife are working makan gaji, so we could afford more or less the things we require, (tapi jangan la nak ngada-ngada demand yang bukan-bukan pulak..) a roof over our heads, cars, bikes, and many other stuffs that some other people could only dream of.. tapi barang koman-koman je la, bukannya power-power, k. still, Wow! that's why i said earlier God is Great. what i'm getting to here is, God has given me a family that i love with all my heart and soul, and i do know that He is testing me. i surely hope i'm not letting down myself, because by letting down myself, then i'm disappointing Him. as such, this test of love is a great and big test. as muslim @ mukmin @ muhsin, we are not supposed to cling on dearly to anything in this world. but can you show me a person, be it a man or a woman, who doesn't love his family?unless there's a loose screw somewhere, that's a different story la..
oui! i'm going astray from what i intended to write la.. the original idea was to write about school holiday and its happening, my happenings, but now i'm getting somewhere else. life is like that. when you want to do something, but then you found out you ended up doing something else as well, if not doing a different thing altogether la.. it is always like that.. well, got to go, coz i've other kehendak dunia to settle. maybe next time i let you know what i've done these last twelve days for my soul satisfaction, on a personal level. maybe la...
until then, live a life. ciao!