seek n find

- what you seek may
 not be what you find -

nkc

thus, empty your mind n let it come, just let it come..
n fill your heart

father's day - reply

ThaNKs a lot sayang..
ThaNKs for d heart melting words haha
U mean a lot to me, tau!!
A daughter is forever loved by her parents, who tend to overlook her weakness coz parents love is everything n forever.
So b a good girl, an obedient one, a hardworking one as well, solehah all d time, n make urself proud so that papa n ibu can share your happiness, in shaa Allah.
Luv u a lotta haha

nkc

father's day letter

Happy fathers day, papa! <3 br=""> Thank you for being such a good, brilliant n loving dad. No words can describe how thankful and how much i love you. You've always work hard and you dont even complain. Altho it was hard, you keep it all to yourself. I know these words are nothing to be compared to everything you did for us. But im still very grateful and pls keep in mind that i love you a lot and i'll always support you! Hehe.
I'll try my best to make you and ibu proud, and im truly very sorry bcs i know most of the times, i keep repeating the same mistakes again and again. But i'll rlly try to be a daughter that can bring a smile to yr face. And insyaAllah, i'd want to bring you everywhere you wanna go to, and things that you've been wanting to hv. Thank you for accepting me the way i am and thank you for being the best dad in the world! Thanks for everything!

I love you a lot, more than to the moon and back hehe. Sorry for everything as well tau ;-;. Have a nice day! <: br=""> Muah take care! And assalamualaikum wbh hehe.

Alisya

karma? or kifarah?

sabarlah wahai diri

Sabarlah wahai diri

Kalau orang tak sudi

Kalau orang tak suka

Apakan daya

Sabarlah wahai diri

Andai penat berusaha

Hanya pedih terasa

Tabah menghadapi

Sabarlah wahai diri

Saat hati terluka

Saat hampir putus asa

Ada jalan untuk atasi

Sabarlah wahai diri

Katakan dalam hati

Tenangkan diri

Kerna Tuhan menyayangi

Guala!

Puasa semalam.. dan hari ni

assalamualaikum wbh

puasa semalam, setakat ramadhan kali ini lah, adalah yang terpanas dan terhaus yang gua rasakan haha.. memang mengerlip panasnya, gua cakap lu!

 iye, memang gua cargas dari pagi lagi, sebab ada kematian kat rumah jiran, pastu buat keroje sekola, tengahari solat jumaat, petang cargas gitu gini, tapi memang haus betul semalam punya puasa. masa gua singgah bazar balik dari sekolah isteri gue, peh! punya la berasap rasanya. padahal dok kejap je kat bazar tu. tak tau la mcmn deme yang niaga kt situ bersabo, kn.. 

petang pas mesin rumput yang tak tahan sekali tuu. mulut dh la kering, pahit jee terasa.. time buka, makan kurma sebiji pastu pekena ayor teh, ya Allah, nikmat tak terkata. berkat puasa le tu gamaknya hehe  :) 

dan memang pun sepanjang malam tadi time buka dan pas terawih gua hanya sekadar makan kurma, buah mempelam dan murtabak je. selebihnya? minum dan minum dan minum dan minum dan minum sampai le time nak lena..

hari ni? sejuk menusuk qalbu haha 

seronoknya la alahai..

moral of the story? amende je Dia bagi, Alhamdulillah!! forever and ever and ever and ever je..

layan..

waktu merindu

Dan dalam mimpi

Tak berwarna

Aku melihat mu

Dan dalam kata

Tak berhuruf

Aku mengingati mu

Dan dalam hari

Tiada berhujung

Aku terkenangkan mu

Dan dalam waktu

Tak bertemu

Aku merindui mu

nkc

Dinihari 5 juni 2017

rambling on my mind..

They say time flies when you are having fun. Emm, well, I do have fun but not all the way it is fun for me, okey. But yeah, time flies like a jet plane, faster I guess, now that I only manage to pen down the ramblings on my mind since the turn of the year. 

kan..

At the beginning of the year, just like the last two years, my family and I, minus iliya, were in kuantan coz my boy abil was going to enroll for his third year at MATA. So we stayed at Swiss Garden, courtesy of my wife’s membership there. It was fun for the children and my wife. And yes, I too had fun. We went around Kuantan: the zoo, the mall, the dinner at the stall along the road to cherating, lunch consisting of nasi minyak and satar at pok su peramu, the swim in the pool and the walk along the beach. And we celebrated arief’s birthday as well, which was on the first January, on a moderate scale

Once school started for the new year, I had my hands full with, yup, you got it right, sports activities. As usual it was mini marathon in January, sukaneka and acara awal sukan early February and before February ended, the school annual sports day was over. Phew! It was very hectic but thank God I managed. Alhamdulillah. Right before school break in March, the spm result came out. It was not that bad but it was not that good either. Only 10+- students managed to score A in English. Nevertheless, I was thankful. At least the percentage of passes didn’t dip below 80%. If that were to happen, haha, the principal would definitely skin me. Figuratively je la.. 

d  girls at puncak 300

Oh, before that, right after the sports day, me and my girls, nia, lisa , iliya and my wife went to puncak 300 for a climb. Happening jugak la, considering it was the first time for them. And when school holidays appeared, I took my family ( iliya and abil were left behind) to krabi and Phuket. We drove there and it was a fantastic experience. The only thing was that while we were there, I was informed that mak was hospitalized for pneumonia. Ya Allah, I hoped she would be alright. Once we came back on Thursday, the next morning I drove down to pj. Mak was admitted into Kelana Jaya MC and my wife and I stayed the night there to look after her. That’s the least I could do. Thankfully two days later she was discharged but she was still weak. At the end of March once again I drove down to Pj to meet my parents. But this time we went to a niece’s wedding reception as well at Pullman Hotel. It was a grand occasion, I must say. Alif Satar was the host for the event and Nia had a photo taken with him. Hehe.. 

alif satar delighted to take a pic with nia!!

d under 18 2017

For the month of march till early april, I was busy with football training. Actually the training started from late January but it was only in march I started to push the team to the maximum. I had targeted for both under 15 & 18 to be champion this year. when the tournament began early april, the under 15 played first. They were very good and I anticipated them to be champion come final. During the semi they thrashed their opponent, Pangkor, 3-0. But in the final they were not playing like their normal self and the game ended 0-0. During the penalty shootout with Bt sepuluh, they lost 1-3. I was gutted especially so after knowing that right after the semi, the boys went to the beach looking for seashells when they should have been at home resting. Takpela. Just wasn’t my day, I guess. And the following week the under eighteen started their tournament and played really well, full of discipline and were favorite to be champion after they beat Voke in front of the opponent’s home crowd during the quarter. But alas, just like the under fifteen, they disobeyed my instruction, played snooker and was at the cyber café when it was their resting time, and in the semi, I let them play without my suoervision and they lost 0-3. All this while they had only conceded a goal, and that too was from a set-piece. I felt disappointed with the boys attitude. I was feeling down for a few days but life had to go on, right. In life @ sports, it’s either you win or you learn. And in this year tournament, I learnt my lesson.

Once football was over, mid-year examination was just around the corner. Tired as I was, I soldiered on, preparing my students for the upcoming exam. I knew it wasn’t enough but at least something was better than nothing at all, kan.. one good thing about the exam was that English was one of the earliest subjects to start. I could start marking early and hopefully finish off everything a week or two before the semester holiday. In between the exam, it was teachers day, and as usual I belted a few songs, namely La Bamba and Mungkin Nanti. Layan.. bila lagi, kan, nak layan kepala.. and as I anticipated, I finished marking early. Alhamdulillah.

A week before the holiday began on 26^th May, I was free of school chores. What a relief haha. I felt sorry for my friends who had to mark during the holidays. When the holiday started, I went back to pj to see my parents, especially so coz my mum was not feeling well. Stayed there for three nites and mak was looking better on the Thursday that I left. But alas, the next day she was so weak that she had to be admitted into the hospital. And last Tuesday, once again I drove down to pj to see her at PPUM. Alhamdulillah the next day, right after I left for home, she was discharged.

And now here I am putting my thoughts and stories and moments into words though not as detailed as I thought I would. School will open in a few days, and we are now in the midst of the fasting month. I still have the oral marks to prepare before I get to school next Tuesday. I do think that I am not as industrious as I was last year, perhaps due to my age kot.. haha but I still maintain my work rate especially so in sports. Well, I need to do it so that I am healthy enough to do what I wanna do and to eat what I feel like eating without worrying about the side effects bla bla bla. So far, and hopefully forever, I do not have any illnesses. None that I know of la, kan hehe! But I know I am not getting any younger and grey hair is abundant already but the problem here is that in my heart I still feel young. I still feel like playing football with the boys during pj, which I actually do, and I still run 10 to 15 laps with the football players during football training and I play the guitar with my students for our jamming session in my room. I still crack jokes, have fun, be full of sarcasm with my students, teach them lessons vibrating with enthusiasm  though my teaching approach is rather old school, and always animated when telling them stories or giving them lectures now and then. What I gather here is that I feel alive when I am around my students, when I am at school. Thus, when I contemplate of retirement, I always look back and can’t help to feel a tinge of sadness and become melancholic. Still, everything comes to an end and I should get myself ready, physically, mentally and spiritually. But for now I just wanna rock and roll like I used to but at the same time not forgetting that death is approaching fast, thus as a believer, preparation for life hereafter is actually an on-going process, which if I were to be honest, started more than a decade ago.

Does this mean I am ready to meet my Maker? Hmm, a good question, kan. I will deal with this in another posting in shaa Allah, coz this is a delicate matter but as a mortal, we need to be on guard all the time coz we never know when the angel of death will make an appearance. Maybe soon maybe later but surely he’ll turn up.

Is this what they meant by mid-life crisis? Hahaha perhaps, perhaps.. : )

kasih ibu

Sepanjang waktu

Kasih ibu

Tiada jemu

Mengirim rindu

Di kala aku

Alami kelu

Di kala aku

Berjiwa pilu

Kasih ibu

Mengubat duka ku

Ibu hanya satu

Tiada saing mu

Tiada yang lebih tulus

Dari mu

                            

Mendidik aku

Mengasuh aku

Bersabar dengan ku

Tiada pernah jemu

Kasih ibu

Kini

Ku kirim doa rindu

Agar diri mu

Dalam rahmat kasih

Rabbi ku

Kasih ibu

Tiada jemu

Sepanjang waktu

Subuh isnin 10 ramadhan 1438

*terkenang mak di PPUM

end of weekend..

haiku for u

To be or not to

That’s troubling me

The question of this friendship

I know that you know

How I feel for you

But yet you ignore me so

Are you really you

Coz when you talk to me

I feel so miserable

I just want to go

Away from all this

Coz I feel so neglected

The birds are chirping

Singing my unspoken words

Of sadness and loneliness

The wind is sighing

Bitterness in me

The pain is unbearable

Perhaps time will tell

If you really care

And if you really miss me

nkc haiku 20^th may 2017

krabi & phuket holiday

As a promise made to my children, I took nia, arief and lisa + my wife for a holiday in Krabi and Phuket during the school break in March. Abil n iliya couldn’t join us coz their college session was not having their break then. And this holiday was different coz I was driving my odyssey just for the sake of having a hands-on experience and how it would feel to drive there. The first day of holiday, a Saturday, at 3 am, yes, you read it right, we left home. Konon2nya nak avoid the congestion at the border la.. we reached Bkt Kayu Hitam at half past six and after prayer and breakfast, we had our documents ready by eight thirty. The crowd was so huge since like us, everyone wanted to get across the border early. The crowd at the border was even worse and we took almost two hours to get our passports stamped before we managed to cross over. 

queue at d border

Welcome to Thailand!! It was Sadao, the border town where we had our brunch. By 11 am local time, we headed for Krabi. Oh, before that I bought sim card for my hand-phone. And true to its words, super 4G, Thailand simcard was really superb. There was never a moment when I did not have any connection to the internet and my children could even browse youtube using the hotspot from my hand-phone. Initially the traffic was heavy but once we passed by Hadyai, it got better. But tiredness and lack of sleep were getting to me that I had to stop by the roadside to catch a nap. After half an hour, we continued again.

quick nap!!

jom ke paso malam!

 The scenery that greeted us along the way was a mixture of something we normally had when we drove through villages in Malaysia: peacefulness and driving at a leisurely speed as well as absorbing the feeling of being in Thailand. The villages along the way didn’t look much different from the one back home except that they had their uniqueness which is quite difficult to explain. But I love driving there since most of the way it was straight road, and better still no toll booth in sight!! After what felt like forever, we finally reached Ao-nang, the well-known beach town in Krabi. Once we checked into the hotel, we walked along the street there and had some local delicacies by the mosque. At seven, we took a Tuk-Tuk to Krabi night market, about 15 km away. The night market was definitely different with peddlars selling all sort of stuffs that I wished I could buy everything thay had to offer. When we got there, we were greeted by a girl barely ten years old, all dressed up in traditional clothing preforming traditional dance. There was even a group of children playing a gamelan sort-of. The drinks there were unique, the stuffs for sale were eye-catching. But lucky me, I managed to control my temptation hehe.. Still, I bought a bagpack for my wife and few other stuffs for the children. Before calling it a night, we had dinner at a roadside stall, christened 69 by its owner. I wondered why but later I found out all the food there, a plate of whatever rice plus a drink, cost 69 baht. Okeyy!! 

mrs nk chai

cocktail bamboo !!

- giraffe family -

aiskrim nyiur,,

The next day, we left for Phuket. It was a three hour drive and once we got there, we quickly had a late lunch, changed our clothes, and headed to Patong beach via the town. Phuket was brimming with foreigners. Especially the beach. The mat salleh easily outnumbered the locals. Patong beach had assorted activities: the jet-ski, the parachute-gliding, banana boatride, sandcastle building and the dip in the open sea. By sunset, we headed back to our cozy little apartment. We had kebab, slices of bread with cheese, local pancake and liters of nescafe. The children were dog-tired, so they slept straight away after that, but as for me and my wife, we went for a walk to see the nightlife in Phuket. Just like daytime, mat salleh was all over the place. We went to Bangla road, famed for its exotic pole dancers. Not only that, we also managed to see live bands at the open pub and magician performing tricks there. We bought ourselves a t-shirt each and by midnight, we got to our apartment. 

masjid ao-nang

btreakfast canai n nasi kerabu

paso malam krabi

bangla road  

nia n tintin n friends!!

arief n patong sunset

patong beach

Monday morning, after a quick breakfast, we returned to Krabi. We stopped along the way at a village to buy rare penyapu lidi and few other things. They were so cheap and so different that we couldn’t ignore them. Once we reached Ao-nang, we had lunch and stretched our limbs as soon as we checked into the hotel. In the afternoon, my wife went for a massage while I booked for us an island hopping trip for the next day.

Tuesday morning, we went island hopping as planned. What was great about it because we had the boat to ourselves. The first island that we stopped by was Tup island.  The tide was low and we could explore the place and walk to the neighbouring island. There was quite a crowd there but we didn’t mind. The water was crystal clear and the children were buzzing with joy. Then we went to a more secluded island, Poda island, where we had our lunch and went snorkeling. It was great for my wife and children. Just like Tioman, the fishes were abundant and colorful. But the wave there was quite scary too. By two pm, we went to Chicken island but the boat just stopped at the water for us to go snorkeling again. Since it was deep yours truly was the only person who dived into the water. The experience of being in the water with all sorts of fishes surrounding you, is very hard to explain. It was marvelous and dazzling, to be honest. Lastly, we went to Phra Nang cave, where the beach and water were simply superb. The wave that came crashing down upon us was a joy. After more than half a day being at Andaman sea, it was time to go back to shore. The children stayed in the room, but my wife and I went to the beach to see the sunset. The sight of the sun setting was breathtaking. SubhanAllah. We did some shopping, buying rare and exotic items before having dinner with the children and calling it a day.

andaman sea

tup island

elephant ride for d kids

emerald pool

 The next day, we went for an elephant ride and went for a dip in the emeraldblue pool about 50km away from Ao-nang. The last day was spent buying t-shirts for the children and some mementos. Thursday morning, after having nasi beriani and nasi lemak for breakfast, it was a long journey home. I chose the wang kelian border to avoid the jam and crowd at bkt kayu hitam. By 8pm, we were back at home sweet home, full of memories and happiness, as well as tiredness haha!! It was a different experience driving on your own, driving through villages, stopping wherever and whenever. Maybe I’ll do this again next time. Most probably, in shaa Allah. Alhamdulillah for this sensational experience.

welcome to malaysia!!

ao-nang sunset